Smack in the middle
Caught smack in the middle,
between despair and fear,
you are far from me
and I am nowhere near.
What I hope to achieve
and who I hope to be
this turmoil a conundrum,
this numbness apathy.
I stagger around in darkness
and stub my fucking toe,
lost beyond redemption,
understand me what I know.
The synapses are firing
cross and X and back,
sanity on the in-side
killing myself off-track.