Grasping at straws
I keep telling myself that I’m grasping at straws
and that my hope for you is a fool’s hope,
but even a fool’s hope is better than no hope
and for the time being, that will do.
Yet is practise in my head all the scenarios,
all of the ways and reasons for you to say ‘no’
and send me spiralling back into the void.
Because I don’t intend for you to read this
if we are not to be,
but I still hope that I may show you
what I could do with you next to me.
For I would set this world ablaze
like a giant Christmas tree
with works that would delight and amuse
if I could call you my muse.
But for now, I toil in silent obscurity,
grasping at straws in my head.