Example
I try to set a good example for you, my boy,
and provide for you all the things you deserve
based on the amazing quality of your little heart,
including enough no’s to keep it that way.
But am I doing a good job? I really don’t know.
Part of me says I need to stop doting on you, get on with my life,
so you’ll be free to develop more independently from my flaws.
But a sad truth is that me and my flaws
are the only constant in your turbulent life
and perhaps the best thing in it,
or the thing to keep you sane?
For I know not only the quality of your heart,
but also its frailty
and I know how much and how little you have
for they are the same things I am rich and poor in
although I try to provide you with more
than what I have.
Every choice I make impacts you so immensely,
it seems the only choice I have
to provide you with the stability
you so badly crave
is to change as little as possible,
do as little as possible,
choose as little as possible
and slowly diminish,
like a flame, deprived of oxygen.
Yet you are worth my last breath
and the light in my eyes
and I will gladly give you all that is mine to give
to give you a chance to grow
into the sterling human being
you can become.
Go on, my boy, change the world
for both of us.
Papa